Friday, July 31, 2009

loooong week

This has be the longest week ever. A Friend of ours commited sucide on sunday over a broken heart his mom found him. grrrrr so mad and so sad a full of emotions and questions. WHY!!!!
Greg was the type of guy that NEVER showed his emotions you never could tell if he was having a bad day because he would hide it. This is not the first friend or even the 2 or 3rd friend we lost to do this but it is one that you would neve suppect EVER!!!!! just want this weekend to be over.
God Greg GRRRRRRRRRR Love you

Monday, July 13, 2009

Please pray.

Wow I just heard one of the worst stories!!
The lady I spoke about in my 5/12 post "OK seriously" cause she got pregnant 4 times after having her tubes tied!! Well she was due to give birth to her daughter the end of June, well she went to the doctor her said everything was looking good and that if she didn't have the baby by her next appointment, they would schedule her to be induced. Well a week later she went into labor on her own. Everything still seemed fine baby had a heart beat and everything. Well the worse thing you can imagine happened the baby passed away during child birth. They determined that there was a knot in the umbilical cord and it caused her to go with out oxygen and she passed away. I just can not understand this SERIOUSLY!!!!! what the hell??? why Didn't they notice the babies little heart rate decelerate and why the hell didn't they perform a c-section. This make me so mad, sad, pissed. Mom is doing well and depending on God to get her through this time. Please pray for this mom and her family!!!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009


After reading a post by a fellow blogger I just had to write!!!
I first have to say I personally did not lose a child, but many close to me have.
My aunt who follwed the doctors orders to a T, lost her baby to spnial bifida at 10 days old. My Sister in law Lost her baby to a heart defect 2 weeks old. My neighbor lost twin boys born too early at 24 weeks.
Then you have the white trash girl in my neighboehood who has 7 yes SEVEN children by many different fathers, all who are healthy even though mom spent most of her time in the bar. She is on welfare and has thse porr children spending THEIR summer infront of the bar where moms b/f works. GRRRR
Then there is this girl who should know better, married, works seems like she is well educated but she acted like a complete ASS during her pregnancies even posting pics of her hold beers while pregnant, she got drunk many times & low adn behold ALL CHILDREN 3 born healthy and at term.

I am not sure where I am goign with this post , I just had to vent .
My heart is breaking for all you women who lost your sweet angle babies.
I send you (((hugs))) and prayers!!!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Birth control

When I think about all the money I spent on B/C since I was 19, I get so pissed off.
Seriously 9 yrs at $40-$60 bucks a month really adds up. GRRRRR
Now I have not been on the pill for 3 years And did not get pregnant anyway so was the pill really just a big waste of money? ( I have not been TRYING to get pregnant for 3 years, just wanted to be done with the damn pill and if it happened it happened)
Now that I have a new job with good & FREE beneifts maybe just maybe I will be able to really start thinking about the whole baby thing!!!