It's been a while!

Since I last posted so much has been going on in my life.

The new job is going great, VERY busy but I really enjoy it.
We moved out of Eric's house due to the fact it was old and needed so much work and I did not want to spend the money to fix it. We would have had to completely gut it get it where we would like it to be. So we moved into a 2 bedroom apartment, it is completely updated all brand new appliances, new carpet and new ceramic tiles in the bathroom & kitchen. We painted the living room and dining room and bought new furniture and it is starting to feel like "home".
The best part is that we did all this with out ONE fight!!!!! we have been getting along so well, he is actually excited to work on the house and do things!! When we were in the house, he never wanted to do anything to it because it used to be his grandparent's house and he felt guilty changing anything, so it has been the same since his grand mom passed 9 years ago. But now it is a new fresh start!!! Time to look to the future, he even mentioned the B word yes babies!!!! woo hoo life is looking good.

At Work

This week and Next week we are doing professional Developement at work can you say BORING!!!! I want to rip my eyes out!! Well today we had to have a phone /virtual traning, the lady who right now as we speak is in some state down south, and My one co worker and I are in a board room listening to her and following her along on our computers. She is so nice, but how exciting and interesting can you make it. I will be stuck in this room until 4 PM and then 2 days next week. ahhhhhhh

The only thing getting me though today is that I am picking up my God-Daughter Cloie when I get out of here today!!!!!! yeaaaa Can NOT wait. Build a bear & Chuckie Cheese here we come.
I also would love to see UP I hope it is still playing, has anyone seen it? Comments???
Ok well let me get back to this training, hope I did not miss aything too important.
Hope you are all Well!!

(((Hugs))) and Baby Dust to everyone ( well those that want it) dont want to send it to all you brand new mommies! Expecially those who just had their little love bugs!

loooong week

This has be the longest week ever. A Friend of ours commited sucide on sunday over a broken heart his mom found him. grrrrr so mad and so sad a full of emotions and questions. WHY!!!!
Greg was the type of guy that NEVER showed his emotions you never could tell if he was having a bad day because he would hide it. This is not the first friend or even the 2 or 3rd friend we lost to do this but it is one that you would neve suppect EVER!!!!! just want this weekend to be over.
God Greg GRRRRRRRRRR Love you

Please pray.

Wow I just heard one of the worst stories!!
The lady I spoke about in my 5/12 post "OK seriously" cause she got pregnant 4 times after having her tubes tied!! Well she was due to give birth to her daughter the end of June, well she went to the doctor her said everything was looking good and that if she didn't have the baby by her next appointment, they would schedule her to be induced. Well a week later she went into labor on her own. Everything still seemed fine baby had a heart beat and everything. Well the worse thing you can imagine happened the baby passed away during child birth. They determined that there was a knot in the umbilical cord and it caused her to go with out oxygen and she passed away. I just can not understand this SERIOUSLY!!!!! what the hell??? why Didn't they notice the babies little heart rate decelerate and why the hell didn't they perform a c-section. This make me so mad, sad, pissed. Mom is doing well and depending on God to get her through this time. Please pray for this mom and her family!!!

ramblings

After reading a post by a fellow blogger http://lovelosshope.blogspot.com I just had to write!!!
I first have to say I personally did not lose a child, but many close to me have.
My aunt who follwed the doctors orders to a T, lost her baby to spnial bifida at 10 days old. My Sister in law Lost her baby to a heart defect 2 weeks old. My neighbor lost twin boys born too early at 24 weeks.
Then you have the white trash girl in my neighboehood who has 7 yes SEVEN children by many different fathers, all who are healthy even though mom spent most of her time in the bar. She is on welfare and has thse porr children spending THEIR summer infront of the bar where moms b/f works. GRRRR
Then there is this girl who should know better, married, works seems like she is well educated but she acted like a complete ASS during her pregnancies even posting pics of her hold beers while pregnant, she got drunk many times & low adn behold ALL CHILDREN 3 born healthy and at term.

I am not sure where I am goign with this post , I just had to vent .
My heart is breaking for all you women who lost your sweet angle babies.
I send you (((hugs))) and prayers!!!

Birth control

When I think about all the money I spent on B/C since I was 19, I get so pissed off.
Seriously 9 yrs at $40-$60 bucks a month really adds up. GRRRRR
Now I have not been on the pill for 3 years And did not get pregnant anyway so was the pill really just a big waste of money? ( I have not been TRYING to get pregnant for 3 years, just wanted to be done with the damn pill and if it happened it happened)
Now that I have a new job with good & FREE beneifts maybe just maybe I will be able to really start thinking about the whole baby thing!!!

Love at first sight!!!!

The twins have arrived!!!! No not me, my best friend Jenn ( chica to me) .
Luke and Nolan arrived on June 22nd at 36 weeks, 2 weeks before their scheduled C-section.
Nolan came at 11:38 tipping the scale at 5lbs 12 oz and was 18.7 " and Luke followed one minute later weighing 5lbs 1oz and was 18" and the are BOTH BLONDE!!!! I thought for sure at least one would have dark hair like daddy, nope both are blonde like mommy. Luke had to go to the NICU to get some help with his breathing but is doing great otherwise, he is even eating better then his tubby brother( love you Nolan).
I got to hold Nolan for hours yesterday and even change a poopy diaper. I got to see Luke through the glass at the NICU. I can not wait to get my hands on him, and smother him with kisses. Mommy is doing great, even though I am one up on her in the diaper changing. lol
She looks amazing, she does not look like she just had twins. She looks awesome holding her babies, though they do have to listen to her singing crazy made up songs ( it will be OK boys no mommy is not crazy) . Daddy is a rock star, jumping right in changing and feeding, and taking care of mommy.
I am so happy for them, they are a perfect little family. They are so happy and I wish them nothing but the best. Hopefully by this time next yr it will be me having a baby hey maybe I will have twin girls and we can start planning their weddings. he he
Well Let me get back to work so I can hopefully get out early and go see the babies again.